Should I?

Should I?

Am I going too far?

Does she even deserve this kind of effort?

Dalam sebulan ke depan, this whole thing could’ve been 5 years.

Tapi sekarang… it’s just another wasted piece of my precious limited time.
I don’t wanna regret it, but rationally, it already cost my life a lot.

5/28 tahun umurku aku sudha kenal dia, I knew her in and out.

I did her good, I possibly could for her.

I did everything I possibly could for her.

And suddenly… everything turned into nothing but pain.

But emotionally, yeah atleast I gained a lot of lessons about life.

I should’ve known since February 2021 and February 2023.

Aku harusnya dump her sejak dulu ’cause she betrayed the sacred promise.

But I was blind… maybe blind by so-called love, or maybe it was just me trying to stay loyal, honest, and real with who I am.

My definition of real love is simple, “I choose her not because it was easy, I choose her whether it’s easy, hard, good time, tough time, risky, or even if it might cost everything I have.”

Maybe that definition isn’t for everyone.

But here I am, one of the realest MF to ever walk this planet.

And sometimes I wonder…

What would Pac do if he were in my situation?

Damn Pac, it’s been hell outta here

Last updated: 13:29, 12/07/2025